So the last time I was here was February. February when the foul thing called depression had it’s icy fingers around my heart. February when I was wading through sand just to get through one day.
Now it’s May, May with the sunshine and the sea of calm. May the month of my birth. May the month of new things. May the month of Mental Health.
It seems that this month has been a month of big changes for me, a month to learn things about myself that I’d apparently forgotten. Firstly it was Nanowrimo. A month of trying to write a 50,000 word novel in 30 days. Did I finish it? Well, I wrote 50,000 words but I didn’t finish… Continue reading A Change in Me
… because a voice in my head told me it will make things better. And now I’m not sure how I feel. Or why I trusted it. I’ve been writing fanfiction for years. I was introduced to the concept when I was in my teens but I was doing it long before that in notebooks… Continue reading Last night I deleted 12 novels worth of writing……
For a while now I’ve not been feeling quite right. I don’t know what triggered it. I can’t pinpoint exactly when it started. All I know is that it started again. It began with a want to isolate myself. A need to be alone, not unusual for a hermit like me but this was a… Continue reading When the Nightmare’s Return It’s Time To Take Action!
This time, let’s talk about work. I feel like people talk a lot about how mental illness affects their outside lives, their social and personal lives but they don’t talk enough about how it affects their work. For me, or at least the way I perceive it, my mental illness affects me in work in… Continue reading OCD, Anxiety, Work and Me; The foursome not living in harmony.
2:18 Ramblings That Only just Make Sense….
It’s been about a month since I last updated. My apologies, between work, a trip to London, reading and watching Buffy. Oh yeah and starting the gym (go me!) I haven’t had time to update this blog. I think more importantly though I haven’t felt a drive to update it. I’m just throwing my voice… Continue reading Watch me Fall…